The Hypochondria Blog » November 2009
November 6, 2009
I am 24 years old male and I have just discovered that I am hypochondriac by searching the internet the sypmtomes really matches me, I have been always worried about my health, it is like I want to convience myself that I have a disease and if I became sure that I am free for a certain disease I tend to search for another illness to worry about,it started when i was a kid i once watched a tv program about diabetes syptomes and i immediately got convienced that I have diabetes, I even forced my dad to make a test for me, another time I forced my mum to take me to ent doctor because i thought i have some problems in hearing! i even tried to imagine that I dont hear well! when i became older by 21 it became more severe, I thought i have high blood pressure, and I went to check it, another time I thought I have virus c then I went to make the test and I was fine, another time I thought I had HIV just because i used to have an unprotected sex with my girl friend although she is absolutely fine and I am 100% sure she is ok, I went to make the test from 2 months it was negative but I thought the lab is not good I mean they didnt make the test correctly, it was like i was unhappy with the result its like I wanted to be HIV postive, I even thought of doing the test again, I keep imagining the illness and the consquences of having such disease how it will affect my life, sometimes I imagine that I will die in a terrible car accedient that is going to crash my body, another time I thought I have erctile dysfunction and a heart disease,another big story when I thought that I have infertility so I kept imagining that I will never get a baby so I went and lied to a doctor and told him I am getting married so that he can help me to do the test,I gave to the lab really terrible semen sample so the results were infertility postive! instead of re doing the test I harried to a doctor and I didnt tell him that i suspect that the test is wrong! I think I made him gave me medications which exactly what I wanted! after some time i decided to make the test again and this time I gave a good sample to the lab, the result was that I was fine! and my fertility is really great, I have a great job, great family, everything is great in my life except in dealing with this problem, I become to feel that I am not allowed to have fun... everytime I start to have fun, the thoughts of being ill cross to my mind and it successfully puts me in a depressed/sad mood again, i really paid a lot of money for the doctors, medical tests, big waste of money especially I am young I should not be thinking of heart disease at this age!! but now after knewing I have hpochondria I will try to search for psychiatrist. I never shared what I have just said with anyone, i think i was embarressed that is why I used to keep it to myself
I am 24 years old male and I have just discovered that I am hypochondriac by searching the internet the sypmtomes really matches me, I have been always worried about my health, it is like I want to convience myself that I have a disease and if I became sure that I am free for a certain disease I tend to search for another illness to worry about,it started when i was a kid i once watched a tv program about diabetes syptomes and i immediately got convienced that I have diabetes, I even forced my dad to make a test for me, another time I forced my mum to take me to ent doctor because i thought i have some problems in hearing! i even tried to imagine that I dont hear well! when i became older by 21 it became more severe, I thought i have high blood pressure, and I went to check it, another time I thought I have virus c then I went to make the test and I was fine, another time I thought I had HIV just because i used to have an unprotected sex with my girl friend although she is absolutely fine and I am 100% sure she is ok, I went to make the test from 2 months it was negative but I thought the lab is not good I mean they didnt make the test correctly, it was like i was unhappy with the result its like I wanted to be HIV postive, I even thought of doing the test again, I keep imagining the illness and the consquences of having such disease how it will affect my life, sometimes I imagine that I will die in a terrible car accedient that is going to crash my body, another time I thought I have erctile dysfunction and a heart disease,another big story when I thought that I have infertility so I kept imagining that I will never get a baby so I went and lied to a doctor and told him I am getting married so that he can help me to do the test,I gave to the lab really terrible semen sample so the results were infertility postive! instead of re doing the test I harried to a doctor and I didnt tell him that i suspect that the test is wrong! I think I made him gave me medications which exactly what I wanted! after some time i decided to make the test again and this time I gave a good sample to the lab, the result was that I was fine! and my fertility is really great, I have a great job, great family, everything is great in my life except in dealing with this problem, I become to feel that I am not allowed to have fun... everytime I start to have fun, the thoughts of being ill cross to my mind and it successfully puts me in a depressed/sad mood again, i really paid a lot of money for the doctors, medical tests, big waste of money especially I am young I should not be thinking of heart disease at this age!! but now after knewing I have hpochondria I will try to search for psychiatrist. I never shared what I have just said with anyone, i think i was embarressed that is why I used to keep it to myself
