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April 27, 2010

I am goin insane wit this !!

reading all these posts are comforting to know i am not alone.

i am 21 years old and i dont know why but over the last year i have somehow become a total hypocondriac. I have been diagnosed with depression, anxiety and ocd since i was about 14, but i have never worried about my health like this.

i have had panic attacks here and there over the years but the last few months i am having them more and more and for about 1 week in febuary i was getting these weird attacks where i literally felt like i was suffocating for hours at a time, so after a week of that i fianlly went to the ER. i also asked for a ct scan because i had a pain in my head on and off for a yr and thought i was dying from a brain tumor. the results came back that nothing was wrong and all he said was it was because of aniexty. after that i didnt really have any of those panic attacks anymore until the last week. it happened about 2 times this week and idk why its starting again.

also, last week i woke up and for no reason my left leg felt sore, like a charlie horse or sore muscle, yet i did nothing for it to feel like that. i automatically thought i had some sort of blood clot and was dying or going to have a heart attack. i thought i was going to have to get my leg amputated or something. CRAZY i know. on the outside people probably think im this normal girl, but if they only knew what is going on in my head they would think i am psychotic, which obviously i am becoming.

the muscle soreness then started in my right leg too..but it stopped after about 3 days. but now my left leg has this little pain in it, i cant really explain it, it just feels uncomfortable, and once again im nervous i have a blood clot that is all of a sudden gonna kill me or something. idk if the pain is real or its jus happenein because im overthinking it.

also my right hand hurts sometimes when i wake up. my mom said its prob cuz i text too much, but i know alot of ppl who text way more than me. im also a hair dresser and i use my hands alot, and im like omg i have carpel tunnel syndrome. my career is gonna be over..

i cannot take it!!!! also, my eyes were hurting and i went to the eye dr for a checkup and he didnt say anything was wrong with my eyes.

every single thing wrong with me i think im dying, going blind, going deaf, having a heart attack, etc..

i also gained weight over the last yr and my blood pressure got a little high. im only 21 , but high blood pressure runs in my family and although i know once i lose the weight it will prob go back to normal again i cant help but worry im gonna have heart disease wen im like 40 yrs old.

and as i said before since my leg hurts im like omg maybe its because i gained weight and my veins are getting clogged or something..

I CANNOT TAKE THIS!!!!!!!! i fianlly got insurance after not having it for 3 years so i plan on going to some doctors but at the same time im embarrsed to complain about every single pain and im also scared to go cuz i dont even wanna find out if something is wrong. i cant take it. i just want to live a normal life and not worry about dying..

at the hospital the doctor even told me my oxygen levels are fine, my hearts good, and im gonna live a long healthy life...yet i am still freaking out...my mom reassures me all the time im gonna be fine especialy since the doctor even said it, but then i tell myself..well he only checked my head wit the ct scan and did xrays of my chest..he didnt look @ my legs or back so he could have missed any blood clots or cancers from my waist down. isnt that fucked up??! im losing it!!!

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I am goin insane wit this !!

reading all these posts are comforting to know i am not alone.

i am 21 years old and i dont know why but over the last year i have somehow become a total hypocondriac. I have been diagnosed with depression, anxiety and ocd since i was about 14, but i have never worried about my health like this.

i have had panic attacks here and there over the years but the last few months i am having them more and more and for about 1 week in febuary i was getting these weird attacks where i literally felt like i was suffocating for hours at a time, so after a week of that i fianlly went to the ER. i also asked for a ct scan because i had a pain in my head on and off for a yr and thought i was dying from a brain tumor. the results came back that nothing was wrong and all he said was it was because of aniexty. after that i didnt really have any of those panic attacks anymore until the last week. it happened about 2 times this week and idk why its starting again.

also, last week i woke up and for no reason my left leg felt sore, like a charlie horse or sore muscle, yet i did nothing for it to feel like that. i automatically thought i had some sort of blood clot and was dying or going to have a heart attack. i thought i was going to have to get my leg amputated or something. CRAZY i know. on the outside people probably think im this normal girl, but if they only knew what is going on in my head they would think i am psychotic, which obviously i am becoming.

the muscle soreness then started in my right leg too..but it stopped after about 3 days. but now my left leg has this little pain in it, i cant really explain it, it just feels uncomfortable, and once again im nervous i have a blood clot that is all of a sudden gonna kill me or something. idk if the pain is real or its jus happenein because im overthinking it.

also my right hand hurts sometimes when i wake up. my mom said its prob cuz i text too much, but i know alot of ppl who text way more than me. im also a hair dresser and i use my hands alot, and im like omg i have carpel tunnel syndrome. my career is gonna be over..

i cannot take it!!!! also, my eyes were hurting and i went to the eye dr for a checkup and he didnt say anything was wrong with my eyes.

every single thing wrong with me i think im dying, going blind, going deaf, having a heart attack, etc..

i also gained weight over the last yr and my blood pressure got a little high. im only 21 , but high blood pressure runs in my family and although i know once i lose the weight it will prob go back to normal again i cant help but worry im gonna have heart disease wen im like 40 yrs old.

and as i said before since my leg hurts im like omg maybe its because i gained weight and my veins are getting clogged or something..

I CANNOT TAKE THIS!!!!!!!! i fianlly got insurance after not having it for 3 years so i plan on going to some doctors but at the same time im embarrsed to complain about every single pain and im also scared to go cuz i dont even wanna find out if something is wrong. i cant take it. i just want to live a normal life and not worry about dying..

at the hospital the doctor even told me my oxygen levels are fine, my hearts good, and im gonna live a long healthy life...yet i am still freaking out...my mom reassures me all the time im gonna be fine especialy since the doctor even said it, but then i tell myself..well he only checked my head wit the ct scan and did xrays of my chest..he didnt look @ my legs or back so he could have missed any blood clots or cancers from my waist down. isnt that fucked up??! im losing it!!!

Comments (0)

I am goin insane wit this !!

reading all these posts are comforting to know i am not alone.

i am 21 years old and i dont know why but over the last year i have somehow become a total hypocondriac. I have been diagnosed with depression, anxiety and ocd since i was about 14, but i have never worried about my health like this.

i have had panic attacks here and there over the years but the last few months i am having them more and more and for about 1 week in febuary i was getting these weird attacks where i literally felt like i was suffocating for hours at a time, so after a week of that i fianlly went to the ER. i also asked for a ct scan because i had a pain in my head on and off for a yr and thought i was dying from a brain tumor. the results came back that nothing was wrong and all he said was it was because of aniexty. after that i didnt really have any of those panic attacks anymore until the last week. it happened about 2 times this week and idk why its starting again.

also, last week i woke up and for no reason my left leg felt sore, like a charlie horse or sore muscle, yet i did nothing for it to feel like that. i automatically thought i had some sort of blood clot and was dying or going to have a heart attack. i thought i was going to have to get my leg amputated or something. CRAZY i know. on the outside people probably think im this normal girl, but if they only knew what is going on in my head they would think i am psychotic, which obviously i am becoming.

the muscle soreness then started in my right leg too..but it stopped after about 3 days. but now my left leg has this little pain in it, i cant really explain it, it just feels uncomfortable, and once again im nervous i have a blood clot that is all of a sudden gonna kill me or something. idk if the pain is real or its jus happenein because im overthinking it.

also my right hand hurts sometimes when i wake up. my mom said its prob cuz i text too much, but i know alot of ppl who text way more than me. im also a hair dresser and i use my hands alot, and im like omg i have carpel tunnel syndrome. my career is gonna be over..

i cannot take it!!!! also, my eyes were hurting and i went to the eye dr for a checkup and he didnt say anything was wrong with my eyes.

every single thing wrong with me i think im dying, going blind, going deaf, having a heart attack, etc..

i also gained weight over the last yr and my blood pressure got a little high. im only 21 , but high blood pressure runs in my family and although i know once i lose the weight it will prob go back to normal again i cant help but worry im gonna have heart disease wen im like 40 yrs old.

and as i said before since my leg hurts im like omg maybe its because i gained weight and my veins are getting clogged or something..

I CANNOT TAKE THIS!!!!!!!! i fianlly got insurance after not having it for 3 years so i plan on going to some doctors but at the same time im embarrsed to complain about every single pain and im also scared to go cuz i dont even wanna find out if something is wrong. i cant take it. i just want to live a normal life and not worry about dying..

at the hospital the doctor even told me my oxygen levels are fine, my hearts good, and im gonna live a long healthy life...yet i am still freaking out...my mom reassures me all the time im gonna be fine especialy since the doctor even said it, but then i tell myself..well he only checked my head wit the ct scan and did xrays of my chest..he didnt look @ my legs or back so he could have missed any blood clots or cancers from my waist down. isnt that fucked up??! im losing it!!!

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