February 3, 2008
i always think i am dying
Hello. I just found this site and thought i would share my story. Ever since I was very young, I have thought I had many diseases. When my brother was three and I was six, he got a piece of carrot lodged in his lungs and had to have surgery to remove it. For months I would cry and choke at night thinking I too had a carrot stuck in my lung. When I was seven I watched a movie about AIDS and thought i had Aids for about a year after that. Now, I am 25 and almost everyday I think I am having a heart attack, and I always tell myself, yeah, this time I'm really going to die. Needless to say, I never do. Also, for three years I had a permanent sore throat. thinking I had cancer, I saw about five or six different doctors about it, and finally a throat specialist succeeded in convincing me that I was fine. The next morning, for the first time in years, my sore throat went away. Now, besides for the heart attack thing, I have a lump on my chest which three doctors said was a cyst, and I cant help but really believe it is cancer. I am so sick of always thinking I am dying. and i am scared that one day I will be actually sick and no one will believe me.