The Hypochondria Blog http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/ en Copyright 2009 Fri, 06 Nov 2009 14:13:43 -0800 http://www.sixapart.com/movabletype/?v=3.33 http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss I am 24 years old male and I have just discovered that I am hypochondriac by searching the internet the sypmtomes really matches me, I have been always worried about my health, it is like I want to convience myself that I have a disease and if I became sure that I am free for a certain disease I tend to search for another illness to worry about,it started when i was a kid i once watched a tv program about diabetes syptomes and i immediately got convienced that I have diabetes, I even forced my dad to make a test for me, another time I forced my mum to take me to ent doctor because i thought i have some problems in hearing! i even tried to imagine that I dont hear well! when i became older by 21 it became more severe, I thought i have high blood pressure, and I went to check it, another time I thought I have virus c then I went to make the test and I was fine, another time I thought I had HIV just because i used to have an unprotected sex with my girl friend although she is absolutely fine and I am 100% sure she is ok, I went to make the test from 2 months it was negative but I thought the lab is not good I mean they didnt make the test correctly, it was like i was unhappy with the result its like I wanted to be HIV postive, I even thought of doing the test again, I keep imagining the illness and the consquences of having such disease how it will affect my life, sometimes I imagine that I will die in a terrible car accedient that is going to crash my body, another time I thought I have erctile dysfunction and a heart disease,another big story when I thought that I have infertility so I kept imagining that I will never get a baby so I went and lied to a doctor and told him I am getting married so that he can help me to do the test,I gave to the lab really terrible semen sample so the results were infertility postive! instead of re doing the test I harried to a doctor and I didnt tell him that i suspect that the test is wrong! I think I made him gave me medications which exactly what I wanted! after some time i decided to make the test again and this time I gave a good sample to the lab, the result was that I was fine! and my fertility is really great, I have a great job, great family, everything is great in my life except in dealing with this problem, I become to feel that I am not allowed to have fun... everytime I start to have fun, the thoughts of being ill cross to my mind and it successfully puts me in a depressed/sad mood again, i really paid a lot of money for the doctors, medical tests, big waste of money especially I am young I should not be thinking of heart disease at this age!! but now after knewing I have hpochondria I will try to search for psychiatrist. I never shared what I have just said with anyone, i think i was embarressed that is why I used to keep it to myself

]]> http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/.html http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/.html Hypochondria Blogs Fri, 06 Nov 2009 14:13:43 -0800 I am 24 years old male and I have just discovered that I am hypochondriac by searching the internet the sypmtomes really matches me, I have been always worried about my health, it is like I want to convience myself that I have a disease and if I became sure that I am free for a certain disease I tend to search for another illness to worry about,it started when i was a kid i once watched a tv program about diabetes syptomes and i immediately got convienced that I have diabetes, I even forced my dad to make a test for me, another time I forced my mum to take me to ent doctor because i thought i have some problems in hearing! i even tried to imagine that I dont hear well! when i became older by 21 it became more severe, I thought i have high blood pressure, and I went to check it, another time I thought I have virus c then I went to make the test and I was fine, another time I thought I had HIV just because i used to have an unprotected sex with my girl friend although she is absolutely fine and I am 100% sure she is ok, I went to make the test from 2 months it was negative but I thought the lab is not good I mean they didnt make the test correctly, it was like i was unhappy with the result its like I wanted to be HIV postive, I even thought of doing the test again, I keep imagining the illness and the consquences of having such disease how it will affect my life, sometimes I imagine that I will die in a terrible car accedient that is going to crash my body, another time I thought I have erctile dysfunction and a heart disease,another big story when I thought that I have infertility so I kept imagining that I will never get a baby so I went and lied to a doctor and told him I am getting married so that he can help me to do the test,I gave to the lab really terrible semen sample so the results were infertility postive! instead of re doing the test I harried to a doctor and I didnt tell him that i suspect that the test is wrong! I think I made him gave me medications which exactly what I wanted! after some time i decided to make the test again and this time I gave a good sample to the lab, the result was that I was fine! and my fertility is really great, I have a great job, great family, everything is great in my life except in dealing with this problem, I become to feel that I am not allowed to have fun... everytime I start to have fun, the thoughts of being ill cross to my mind and it successfully puts me in a depressed/sad mood again, i really paid a lot of money for the doctors, medical tests, big waste of money especially I am young I should not be thinking of heart disease at this age!! but now after knewing I have hpochondria I will try to search for psychiatrist. I never shared what I have just said with anyone, i think i was embarressed that is why I used to keep it to myself

]]> http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/.html http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/.html Hypochondria Blogs Fri, 06 Nov 2009 14:12:23 -0800 It all makes sense My names Emma and I think I'm dying. I feel like theres a voice deep down inside whispering that I'm fine and have so much to look forward to and my fears are just that, unfounded, but it's being stifled by the booming voice in my head that is screaming your ill YOUR ILL, THERE MUST BE SOMETHING WRONG!!!!!

If my head hurts I have a brain tumour, if my visions blurry I have a tumour behind my eyes, if my heart skips a beat I have a heart murmur or I'm going to have a heart attack. I just had a miscarriage and now I am crippled by the fear I'll never have a child because my body isnt able. I'm only 26 years old!
I once called an ambulance when I was 18 because my heart was racing. I went to the hospital and was connected upto a heart monitor and had an x ray on my chest and was told by the doctor I must of had indigestion.
Another time I was watching a programme where a character died in a car crash, within minutes I was in my garden in the rain gasping for air because I was convinced I was going to drop dead there and then.
I feel so self absorbed and that if I tell anyone they will think I'm being stupid and ridiculous but I cannot help it. Living day to day in constant paranoia is crippling me. I need help and dont know where to start.

]]> http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/it-all-makes-sense.html http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/it-all-makes-sense.html Personal Stories Wed, 28 Oct 2009 09:10:46 -0800 Don't Make Me Sick Check out this new medical comedy web series, "Don't Make Me Sick" about a hypochondriac doctor! It was written by an Emmy-winning comedy writer and guest stars a bunch of talented comedians. Plus, it's about a doctor who is also a hypochondriac. Very funny stuff!

]]> http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/dont-make-me-sick.html http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/dont-make-me-sick.html Humor Wed, 21 Oct 2009 10:24:24 -0800 http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/.html http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/.html Humor Mon, 28 Sep 2009 13:11:25 -0800 A Hypochondriac Hey all, I have found a interesting site on hypochondria, it is called Hypochondriac's Relief and it seems to be a site geared toward positive stories and a forum for hypochondriac's to write back and forth. I think its a good resource. You can find the site at www.HypoRelief.com

]]> http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/a-hypochondriac.html http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/a-hypochondriac.html Hypochondria Blogs Sat, 19 Sep 2009 12:50:14 -0800 A Hypochondriac Hey all, I have found a interesting site on hypochondria, it is called Hypochondriac's Relief and it seems to be a site geared toward positive stories and a forum for hypochondriac's to write back and forth. I think its a good resource. You can find the site at Hypochondriac's Relief

]]> http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/a-hypochondriac.html http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/a-hypochondriac.html Hypochondria Blogs Sat, 19 Sep 2009 12:49:22 -0800 literally worried to death. hypochondria is ruinin my life. illness is literally on my mind the moment i wake up to the moment i go to sleep. everything i do during the day i imagine what it will be like doing it when im ill. im terrified of going to doctors and learning about symptoms, yet i cant help but do them. i feel physically ill from the anxiety and that only makes things worse. its been like this for two years and its only getting more severe. im only eighteen years old. i even worry that worrying will kill me. if you have any advice please help me. im dying, and im not even sick.


side note...
even going to this website to reassure myself that im just a hypochondriac. all i can look at are the "health risk" google ads on the side of the screen.

]]> http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/literally-worried-to-death.html http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/literally-worried-to-death.html Hypochondria Blogs Wed, 02 Sep 2009 22:24:22 -0800 http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/.html http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/.html Humor Wed, 26 Aug 2009 08:29:35 -0800 ma My friend is a true hypochondriac. She has every disease for which there is no no medical verification, only a list of symptoms. She is elderly. Her health is better than most her age, and so they are intolerant of her. But she does feel terrible. No arthritis, no blood disorders, no gerd. Just feels terrible and sleeps all the time. Goes to psychiatrist every week. How do I help her? I am the only one left who will listen to her, and I feel like I am feeding into it. Any suggestions? Her feeling bad is truly real. But it is hell on all around her.

]]> http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/ma.html http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/ma.html Hypochondria Blogs Sun, 16 Aug 2009 15:43:14 -0800 ma My friend is a true hypochondriac. She has every disease for which there is no no medical verification, only a list of symptoms. She is elderly. Her health is better than most her age, and so they are intolerant of her. But she does feel terrible. No arthritis, no blood disorders, no gerd. Just feels terrible and sleeps all the time. Goes to psychiatrist every week. How do I help her? I am the only one left who will listen to her, and I feel like I am feeding into it. Any suggestions? Her feeling bad is truly real. But it is hell on all around her.

]]> http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/ma.html http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/ma.html Hypochondria Blogs Sun, 16 Aug 2009 15:43:03 -0800 My story I haven't always been like this. When I was 17 I had unprotected sex one time and got an STD. Suddenly I realized I was not invincible. I became obsessed with my sexual health, constantly making up symptoms in my head that didn't exist. It would consume me for hours at a time.
This went on for a few years, then I seemed to get better for a few. I would occassionally have my obsessive moments, but they were few and far between. It seems like the last couple of years it has come back and gotten worst. Now it isn't just sexual health, it is everything. I've had a small, odd-shaped freckle on my chest for years. I found myself spending hours looking at skin cancer pictures on the internet the other day. This morning I woke up with a sore throat and I read about swine flu for a few hours.
We got a dog a few months ago, and everytime she makes an odd noise or does something I am not familiar with, I am googling it and convincing myself she has all sorts of things.
The thing is... I know it's crazy and I know that odds are I don't have any of this stuff. I get lost on webmd, but when I stop and think about it, I realize how ridiculous and sick it is, but I cannot stop. And my feelings about illnesses have changed. When I first started being like this, I was more intrigued. Now I am really frightened of becoming seriously ill. I think I always thought that people with hypochondria weren't aware of their illness, but I am completely aware of how irrational I get. Is that possible?
I don't have health insurance, and I am probably the only person in the world that thinks that might just be a blessing. Otherwise I would probably be at the doctor once a week.
The worst is that I hide it from everyone. When the urge does overtake me and I go to the doctor anyway, I don't tell anyone. I don't tell my boyfriend that I can get obsessed and spend hours researching symptoms and convince myself I am dying. I am living with this secret paranoid obsession and I know it is crazy. I am an intelligent person. I have overcome a lot in my life. But, I think I am a hypochondriac.

]]> http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/my-story.html http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/my-story.html Hypochondria Blogs Wed, 06 May 2009 17:15:54 -0800 This Is What I Do http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/this-is-what-i-do.html http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/this-is-what-i-do.html Humor Tue, 21 Apr 2009 04:29:16 -0800 I worry constantly about getting sick.Bumped (tapped,really)my head the other day and had full blown panic attack that I'd fractured my skull. Had a headache and thought I had an anuerysm. Burned the back of my throat a little with a hot drink,started thinking that my throat was going to close up.A little pimple on my head, thought it might go into my brain.My eyes are a little red so they must be infected. If I lack energy,I think it must be luekaemia.If I get puffed,I worry that I'm going to have a heart attack. Etc.Hypochondria sucks.

]]> http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/.html http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/.html Humor Tue, 21 Apr 2009 04:27:05 -0800 Is this it? I have probably been concerned about my health for as long as I can remember. I almost can't bear to think how many hours I have spent pondering over what is wrong with me. When I am in one of my anxious periods it is almost unbearable. Anxiety attacks, hours browsing the web and health books together with imagining how I am going to cope with the illness, outcome etc dominate the weeks until I can seek reassurance that I am not at that time actually suffering from the condition that I am most confinced I have. What is probably most comical is although I sort of believe I don't have the illness which has preoccupied me for so long I then worry that the amount of time I have spent worrying about it has probably started the ball rolling and I am just about to get the illness! I know it sounds madness when all around me other people are actually being ill and experiencing the horror of really coping but I just don't seem to be able to completely stop the process.

Anyway I just thought this may ring bells.

]]> http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/is-this-it.html http://hypochondria.healthdiaries.com/is-this-it.html Hypochondria Blogs Fri, 27 Mar 2009 12:46:21 -0800