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October 28, 2009
It all makes sense
My names Emma and I think I'm dying. I feel like theres a voice deep down inside whispering that I'm fine and have so much to look forward to and my fears are just that, unfounded, but it's being stifled by the booming voice in my head that is screaming your ill YOUR ILL, THERE MUST BE SOMETHING WRONG!!!!!
If my head hurts I have a brain tumour, if my visions blurry I have a tumour behind my eyes, if my heart skips a beat I have a heart murmur or I'm going to have a heart attack. I just had a miscarriage and now I am crippled by the fear I'll never have a child because my body isnt able. I'm only 26 years old!
I once called an ambulance when I was 18 because my heart was racing. I went to the hospital and was connected upto a heart monitor and had an x ray on my chest and was told by the doctor I must of had indigestion.
Another time I was watching a programme where a character died in a car crash, within minutes I was in my garden in the rain gasping for air because I was convinced I was going to drop dead there and then.
I feel so self absorbed and that if I tell anyone they will think I'm being stupid and ridiculous but I cannot help it. Living day to day in constant paranoia is crippling me. I need help and dont know where to start.
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I agree with everything you have written and im exacally the same so i understand you 100%.Ive been like this for 7 years and its the most horific condition to suffer from,im constantly in fear that i have a brain tumor or something seriously wrong with me and like you have also been to hospital when i was on holiday in cyrrus this year because i was in the pool and all of a sudden my heart started racing and i thought i was having a heart attack and was gonna die,im constantly looking for things and examining myself because i think im ill,hope this makes you feel better and your not alone-vicky 27 x
